Written on 7:28 AM by Adrian
Hi all,
Failed... the result was inconsistent. Why? I really don't... lack of pro-activeness? The whole session they only mention lack of pro-activeness and need consistent monitoring...
Come on.. they never even talk to me the whole year yet I required consistent monitoring??? Well I thought I was the most independent worker around...
I suffered a lot after this incident.. I doubted my ability, "Why am I not able to perform? when I can do well in work place", this line kept appearing my heart.. my mind...
I think God heard my cry... He send down a lady (Sophre), someone I know from church a long time ago... but suddenly just came back to my life unknowingly..... She asked me a question! Which till today I think was God that came to ask me... "Do you know your job scope well?" then followed by "Do you know your company well?". It just open up my mind... I had to humble my ear and hear what is truth... I'm not dependent, nor am i lack of pro-activeness... but to be true, I'm really lack of experience in work place which I made mistake saying the wrong words and reacting the wrong things a lot of time and I did not make enough effort to understand the business as a whole.
Well... It do takes a while for me to learn all this... Yet I think I have a lot more to learn, humbleness is something that should not leave me in my life...
God, I pray that no matter what will be like my future.. I wish you can always walk with me, put meekness and humbleness with me... "Don't throw the stone yet!" God, thank you for all these, you deserve all the praise.
Written on 5:32 AM by Adrian
Hi all,
In a few weeks time, I will be hearing my CFE result! Not sure how JXXXXX (My boss) and GXXXXXX (my so-called boss) will be grading me...
Successful or Inconsistent, I'm not sure but I know that I know, you guys will be praying for me.
In the mist of waiting, my nerve system was being triggered a lot of time a day, and do seem very disturbing!!!!!!!
(Weird and Funny) Thoughts appearing in my mind like a billion times a day! OMG!!! (Don't worry just a descriptive word).
and during the stir, I found myself more diligent... I'm able to plan my time better, producing my work faster, and knowing what is happening in the office.. I became more vigilant!
Does the result important to me? - in the past, yes!!! I desire alot of affirmation from my boss.. I want them to prove me that I'm capable! I'm able! I can do it....
Now the result isn't important anymore... Is not the end of the path! is just a step to pass... (Yes I might not be able to get through....) but my path doesn't stop here! I'm more stronger than what Satan think I am capable of !
God is my provider! my shield! my help in the days of trouble! My Trusted friend! How much my patient is going to be tested, I really don't know but I know He will be there for me and all things are planned according to His purpose... and I know His purpose for me, is to "Keep on keeping on" (Jo, my Zone supervisor), and is to be The Man!
In God, whom I trust!
Written on 9:52 AM by Adrian
Hi,
Waooo.. is a long time since I last post something...
Recently my patient was really put on a TEST!
I had to say that it took over me a few time.... and when it triggered, i scold everyone I know...
Trust in the Lord, kept appearing to me like God prompting me to relax. Got real mad at myself, sometimes I felt i'm going to be insane!
Yet I realise God really want me to go to another level! another stage of my life.
He want me to have faith in Him...
Trusting Him in all the provision.
I believe I will make it to the next stage. Trust in the Lord - Psalm 37:3
Written on 6:59 PM by Adrian
Hi all,
How was your week?
Bored, Tiring, Disturbing?
What is Life to you?
Can't wait to end it?
Or have you found the Why catalyst? The real reason to live?
Being a life as an Abrahamist, I belief life of tomorrow is another day of Victory!
Have you ever wonder why you woke up tomorrow morning everyday? Do you really think you deserve to open your eyes after 6 or 7 hours of rest?
a research found in ehow.com, that a telly of 1440 of people did not get his chance to wake up early the next day. BBC said that an illness named SLEEP APNOEA was the cause of the deadly option! (death without notice).
Yet what is the meaning of living the life of tomorrow?
Shakespeare said before "to be, or not to be" (Famously known to all who knows him) mention that life is troubled and tiring, and seeing all your effort having no return, where sleeping is a choice of dead mind, or a passion of dreams to come. All this came down to a choice make by yourself! (to be or not to be).
Living a life of tomorrow is a choice (An explict opportunity to choose, to imagine, to be what you want to be. Living isn't only finding the reason of what we are living for... But finding the purpose of Why we are living for!
Purpose! is the meaning of Life!
In 2 Cor 4:16 said "Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day". If we do not lose our heart in achieving our Purpose in life, although we are tired, but inwardly our spirit is always recharged, bringing a drive that is so Godly that you just can't stop till it is completed.
[above mention information is found in the links below]
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/4745341.stm
http://www.ehow.com/about_5049743_can-person-die-sleep-apnea.html
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2 Corinthians+4:16&version=NIV
http://www.davidpbrown.co.uk/poetry/william-shakespeare-3.html
http://thelifebk.blogspot.com/2010/05/power-of-why.html
Written on 7:24 PM by Adrian
Hello all,
been waiting for my posting? Come on! add some comments :)
One of the night this week I was praying, then the word of God came to me saying,
"Not by might nor by power, but by my Spirit." - Zechariah 4:6
I meditated a while assume some things then I go sleep, knowing tomorrow I have to work again.
On wed, I was shopping with Weekiat, we were talking about alot of topic under the sun. then we came to the topic of walking away from the Lord, he kept quiet. then he spoke again, saying "I was once away from him also". Which took me a while to recover, then I was asking myself, "hmmm.. I always been encouraging him, and supporting him, why will this happen?"
Looking at Weekiat now, totally on fire for God (Proverb 16) Woooo "hehe if you guys know what I mean"... he was a changed man from before. Shy, timit, and lack of faith. Now he was much courageous and more bold than before. I always thought was my world class moral support! (Shameless) but it is the word of God that changed him, mold him, and dwell in him, that make him who is he and I believe there is more to come from him.
Have you came across things that is greater than you, have you ever tried your very strength yet it is too hard to achieve. So what is it that actually take for things to happen - was it plainly just your strength to achieve all things?
This make me realise, the work of strength have limitation, power of influence had it's boundary. Is only The Spirit of God works in oneself avail much. So now when I'm tired, I will always look to Him, knowing that He will do a miracle in my life, making the impossible possible. :)
I had found my answer, but I'm still searching it in depth. YOU?
Written on 12:56 AM by Adrian
Somedays ago.....
I was struggling with some personal issue.. Stress out completely.
I felt like I was in a place of darkness not able to see what was infront and what are the steps. But I know I must keep walking.
As I walk, insecurity came into me...
"Are you walking the right path?"
"Are you sure you can do it?"
"Is it from God? then why are you so confuse?"
And more unbelief came in.....
"I think I'm stupid"
"I can't make it"
"I feel like dying..."
But some how in my heart, I know I must walk finish this path...
So I kept walking... and when I starting to see some light.. I came to a realization.
Seriously in life, there is alot of things you are unknown to and these unknown areas normally are your area of discomfort zone. and stepping into them require alot of faith.
This incident was in the will of God, and he want me to put my trust in Him.
Life was made up of things that was unknown, and alot of time, I failed to wait, failed to make steps, failed to trust him. and it is when you trusted Him things start to happen. I start to see direction, and light. Eventhough the path still seem so long and impossible to finish, but I know I'm no longer alone! For He is with me, nothing can be against me.
Plan the path, Step in by Faith, Look into the problem, Eye focus on the God.
Written on 6:23 AM by Adrian
Hi,
Going to start blogging all over again!
Hope my dearest reader will like it!
Jiayou! 2010!!
